Friday, July 22, 2011

Day 22

What makes me different from everybody else?

Could be my ability to accept people, even the ones rejected?
I always have been able to mix around with friends be it Indians, Malays, Chinese, Philippians, Papua New Guineans, etc. I have a whole range of people who I can call friends, non-Christians, Christians, and different races. I put up with people who thinks smoking is fun (though I highly discourage it), and I have plenty of weird friends, that's for sure. But mostly, I have friends, who have and still are looked down upon, and people have been criticizing them from the outskirt appearances, yet I can still say ‘That’s my friend’.

They don’t know the real them they are, they don’t stick around to get to know them. When they do something that piss them off, immediately they are judged and people stay away from them. People come up to me and ask “Why are you friends with them?” and I ask them “Why do you hate them so much?” because I really don't understand why they dislike them.

I find it uncomfortable when someone talks bad about them, because they are my friends. So I usually defend them, which sometimes make me loose a friend because of that. They are my friends. You got a problem, tell it to their face. Don’t be such a coward and talk bad about them behind their backs, especially when they aren’t there to defend themselves.


Could it be my ability to love?
I find it very easy to love. I love my friends so much; it hurts to see them hurt. I would do ANYTHING to bring a smile on their face – even if it kills me. I’ll jump in front of a bullet for my friends. No joke. Of course, if people ask me to prove my love for them by killing myself, I’ll just punch their face. (:

When I love, I love. I go out there to help them. I put my problems aside for theirs. I do impulsive things for them. I fake my happiness so it won’t ruin my friend’s happiness. Sacrifice. I sacrifice the things I wanna do for them, because my friends are worth more than myself.

Every now and then, I like to remind my friends how much I love them because I feel as though I wasn’t showing it. So I usually make things for them (like bookmarks) or write nice things on a little piece of note. Friendships are forever.

Could it be my ability to stay strong when all else fails?
Y
es, everybody go through that, but everyone’s problems are different. For me, like stated above, I put my problems aside. In school people see me smiling and laughing. At home, I get depressed. Occasionally I let someone know what I’m feeling, but I don’t reveal everything to them because I don’t want to make it a burden. But life goes on. It doesn’t stop for anyone. I make decisions that may be best for me, even if it hurts me. I’ve thought of suicide (tell me, who haven’t?), but yet I’m still alive.

I stay strong for people, even when I can’t stay strong for me.

People’s Answers on What Makes Me Different from Everybody Else:
Hubert: Well, You're really kind and supportive... At least, to me. You listen to my problems. Even though sometimes you bear them with me. You're too nice at times. :P Hurting yourself for others. But basically, a kind, supportive and all around happy person.

Suan Kai: You are strong­, bold, smart,­ funny, diligent­, trustworthy­ and the most important is.. You are You. :))­

Sarah: Your personality. The way you always try to help your friends instead of yourself, you're more likely to jump down a cliff to save them than to sit there and do nothing. You’re a positive thinker. You’re only positive when it's about your friends but when it comes to you, you're pretty emo. So pretty much you care about your friends more than anyone could in their whole existence.

Esther: You’re really understanding

Lei Shen: You are sensitive, that's for sure. (-.-)

David: You're willing to stand up for what is right. You're willing to hurt yourself for the other person.

Iain: You're understanding. And you're the closest match to who I am.

But, I guess. At the end of the day… What makes YOU different from everybody else?

Btw, if you have any more suggestions, please do write out your opinions (:

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